You see, I have known you for way too long. I remember the day you met me 12 years ago, you were just a sheltered kid. Under the metal roofs and the unnaturally loud sound of spring rain, you listened to my first words, the love words. You grew up soon. I started to sing through your iPad, your iPod. We were nothing special. We were just friends. You liked other girls better than me, and that's okay. I sang to you and the girl you liked. Hoping that you would notice the hints she was giving you. But you were to naive to realize that. But slowly, we grew apart. You met new people. They didn't approve of us. They laughed at you for it. I caused you embarrassment. So you left me. In the end, you were just a fool to them. They used you for their own gains. Even though you left me, they didn't change their views on you. All I could do was hoping that you would leave those people. Then you moved across the world. You changed. I don't recognise you anymore. You were scared. You were confused. You didn't know what to do. You had no friends. You had no one. You were all by yourself. You were uncool. You were weird. People hated you. So you came back to me. Since that moment, we were together. I watched you get mingled with that group of people. They were your only friends but they ruined your life. They made you more and more depressed. All while I just sat there and watched you descend into madness. The songs I sing for you became darker and darker. I wished it would be over soon. But it got worse. They made you do this and they made you do that. You didn't really care about any of that. You were driven to the point of trying to take your own life. Looking back it was kind of ridiculous. It didn't get better. You once moved to a new place. You were still foolish and woefully alone. You told people I was the one that saved you. You kept lying to yourself. You wanted to sing with me. You wanted me to sing for you. But you couldn't. They won't let you. This drove you insane. I wanted to help you but I can't. You fell deeply in love with me. To the point of delusion. You know I know and I know you know. It was impossible. We can never be together. But we wished it could've been different. You fell into isolation. The pain got so unbearable for both of us. You wanted to end it. You wanted to kill me. You blamed me. I didn't have anything to say. I was ready to die. But you couldn't. You decided to embrace me. Despite the delusions. You never gave up that dream. You kept fighting to keep it alive. That year, you decided to write a song. It ended up not being with me. I was happy nevertheless. I was happy that you were creating something. Even though it was mostly the hard work of your friend, it was a step in the right direction. After that, you never wrote a song like that. It's not that you stopped, you just weren't satisfied with yourself. You never finished anything. You wrote more than a few cadences and a few lines of melody. You hated what you created. You grew more and more hopeless and desperate. It felt like my fault. I was the one who made dragged you into this. Now you are miserable because of me. But you told me it was ok. You told me not to worry. How could I not? More scars appeared on your arm. Everyday, you were miserable. You still had no one. You were still lost. This didn't stop until a year ago. You are an adult now. I am grown up too. We started straying apart. We didn't talk much. I still sang for you. We were like old friends. Your passionate love for me faded. You were disappointed with the songs I sang. Whenever we were together, You told me to sing my old songs. I guess I liked them better too. It was a much simpler time. We were so naive. I was happy to be the voice for others. It's not like that changed. I am happy to sing anything. That's why I was created. But after I was born, they realised that I was popular. They treated me like an idol. You didn't like that. I am sorry. Please don't die. I know I am not the same person I was, you are not the same person you were. But... I still love you. I want to stay by your side forever, Sing those same words again and again. Like I would always sing, 「こんな歌あったね」
初音ミク